In this powerful second installment of his five-book series, Courtlin D. Fields invites readers on a transformative journey from despair to self-acceptance. As a self-published work, it stands as a courageous testament to the author’s belief that true healing begins when we embrace all parts of our experiences. Through unflinching poetry, he navigates deep internal pain, celebrates hard-won victories of self-love, and fearlessly shares the intimate process of being “broken in order to be rebuilt.” More than a book, it is a guiding light for those seeking to find strength in vulnerability and truly learn to love their life—one lesson, one poem, and one profound realization at a time.
Content Warning: This collection addresses mature themes, including suicidal thoughts and strong language.
Begin the journey with the foundational first installment of a five-part poetic memoir. As the author’s debut, this collection was self-published with Gate Keeper Press, representing a profound investment in bringing an authentic story to the world.
This raw and honest collection courageously explores the “hating” stage of healing, speaking to life’s most profound challenges—suicide, love, breakups, and the loss of a child and a parent. It finds a way to turn the darkest memories into a source of light, navigating the complex layers of emotional expression, especially as a Black man for whom vulnerability is often discouraged.
This is not a book to tell you how to live your life or make millions. It is a book of poetry to let you know that you are not alone. Every expressed emotion is real, shared with the hope of inspiring connection and understanding, no matter who you are.
Immerse yourself in the full story of healing. Support the author directly and receive autographed copies of the first two installments of the series: Hating to Love My Life: The Fighter in Me Would Not Let Me Die and Learning to Love My Life: GOD Had to Break Me to Heal Me. Your bundle also includes an exclusive gift: a free Loyalty NYCollection t-shirt. This is more than a purchase—it’s an investment in a journey of resilience and loyalty.
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The powerful third installment of the five-book series.
